Funk

I am literally a walking zombie lately.

I am trying really hard to get out of this funk but man it is a big one. There must be something in the air because I am not the only one who has been feeling this way! Lots of people have been telling me they feel off\tired, oh the holidays.

I have had an event or important thing every single day since Thanksgiving!!!
Sometimes I even had more than one thing every day- its been so busy.

I am worn out and Christmas is not even here! Did I mention this month is going by like the speed of light and it is honestly really freaky!?

I have just been super low energy and I think it is partially because I am recovering from the craziness, trying to keep up with the current craziness and to top it off having a little one!

Fortunately, Jet is so good and goes everywhere with me and behaves like a dream most of the time!

I think I have been having some post partum depression slightly too but cannot fully tell from the craziness of my life and distractions. I think I am because I am not fully embracing the holiday season like I have in the past even though I should be WAY excited because I have a cute baby to enjoy the holidays with. I have just been pretty hormonal & crying at super stupid things too but that is just me anyway- I do not know, I am watching myself and seeing if I need to get some help eventually and Dustin is keeping and eye on me too. Its important to be honest with myself about my feelings!

I for sure have a major case of post partum anxiety though. Everyone says "Oh that is every first time mom!" but I think mine is a little exaggerated---I am a worst ca-scenario kind of person and I always have been but I am trying really hard to fight it by doing things that scare me or make me uncomfortable to strengthen my faith in myself.  Mind you, the things that scare me are not dangerous really, they more like "Leave husband with the baby and go to the store," That kind of thing scares me! Ah, need to have a few more kids and maybe I will calm down with the worry wort stuff. I am getting alot better and I am just now starting to feel a bit in the holiday spirit. I  feel as though I have been coming down with a little cold so Jet and I watched 3 holiday movies today haha. Anyways I am kind of in a funk but it will end soon and I am really looking forward to Christmas!

Photography Venture

So I am starting something new! I started up my own photography thing early November and I am pretty excited about it! I thought I just document the beginnings of what I have done. I have already learned so much about taking and editing photos and I love it! Hooray for picking up a hobby that also makes a little money too!

I thought I would document some of my experiences so far and what I have learned that way someday I can look back when hopefully I am more experienced.

I already have had a few clients and a lot of what I am learning is hands on, the more I take photos the more I find my eye for them developing! 

One thing that is kind of embarrassing but the truth is I find myself looking through the lense too much during a shoot and then I end up with a headache after every shoot. I am trying really hard to find the photo outside of the camera first, then look in and take it lol. 

Tomorrow I have a shoot for someone with 6 kids! That is definitely going to be my biggest challenge yet, getting a shot where everyone is at the very least looking! But hey candids are cute too right?